to me

to know

that he cares

the way that he does

and he doesn't even understand how

he could love so much

and is sure that he'll never stop

and if anything changes

it'll be in the same way it has been

for 7 years

... it only increases

an eternity of that.

and I don't worry about the things

that I used to

things that filled my thoughts with negativity

and hate

for myself

and for my body

and filled my self

with desires for pain

a want

to inflict something upon my self

a punishment for

being too much of something

that proved that I wasn't enough

and now it doesn't matter

because I'm starting to see myself

through his eyes

I can't quite

but I'm on the way and it's very nice

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